will have my blog renovated after my spm. see ya soon !
and i promise with loads of juicy blog entries.=]

MR. Phua

we really had lots and lots of irreplacable and valueble memory. together.
the time we watched pokemon during piano lesson.
cheat together during exam.
fall in love in the same time lol.
helping u to woo a girl.
u help me to check out boys i like.
collecting exam tips together.
and also.
the countless time that u had call me to comfort me when i am sad.
no matter wat it is about. u are ready to hear.
u are always there. i can feel it.
u are very strict towards me. and i know why.
coz u care. u really care.
and i care u too.
like so damn fucking care.
i scare they will replace me.
but rest assured u told me. i am irreplacable.
perhaps u are the best mate i could ever have in my life.
u are the first person i turn to whenever i am sad or happy.
and together wif me u are the one who show your support everytime.
to make sure no one would bully me.
this is wad we call unconditional friendship.
but i think we already go beyond friendship. it's like a connection that will withstand any obstacles we had, having and will have.






bla lar. why i so damn mushy one. yeeeeeeee. haha

everything started with misunderstand. the entry was not about her. it's someone else. but once again she thought i was refering to her, then that's it. who will be so stupid to share secret crush or wad with someone she hates? i wont explain further sincee i have clear conscience.

in short, i dun care! =)

just becoz my life is recently too fun-filled so i dont have time to blog. ciao!

pricing at rm95. i want=(=(

i dunno why certain people just have their face on their ass. i mean having face as thick as her fuckable ass. making me wanna puke and an eyesore/soundpollution torturing the whole population of muar. kesian lar all of u. and to her very honourable and bearable man, most pathetic of all. u are really nice but sadly a stamp on your eyes.

truth to be told

MUST READ.
true voice of a guy who is known as playboy but actually not.
http://jingqin-noboundaries.blogspot.com

04 july, a date to remember?
she doesnt mean to remember, but it just reminds her every year.
it always put her in a dilemma, to wish or not to wish?
should she text and wish?
does she looks like a loser for not getting over him?
no, she already gotten over him.
he reminds her how silly and naive she was,
for trusting his stupid lies,
and reminds her not to be silly again.
she will never trust a guy completely since then.
well, he really did carve a great impact in her life and faith in ppl
but she just couldnt help herself from knowing every single bits of thingy abt him.
her heart shivers upon seeing him.
but, so wat? she is now better in single and live the very best of it.
wad more could she ask for?

anyway, all the best in australia =) he may not be able to see this but i have finger crossed for him.

i wan Ed hardy =(
but i am so broke who is going to fulfill my wish?

god bless me

mum: eh i plan to go hongkong within this few months le. i hate your dad following he has zero patience plus a bad shopping companion.
me: bring me bring me! i can accompany u and carry the heaviest luggage for u. some more we can shop like there's no tmr without dad's nagging and lamenting.
mum: ya hor, hmm can put into consideration. eh but i tot u have trial on september? oh like dis cannnot le. unless u have holiday lor.
me: T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T

god bless me to let the trial falls b4 the mid sem holiday and i promise to be a good girl and not a shoes fanatic anymore=(

i become a shoes fanatic in a month, hopefully just a month.

best friend =) different colours symbolize different characteristic, me aggressive and she passive

nothing more than vintage chic haha

days in kl

(this is a post like one week ago. my comp ran low few days ago so i decided to keep it as draft first. and now the system is back to normal. for this fucking minute at least.)

well, this holiday is really a very enjoyable one for me! occupied by all sort of activities, countless visits to malacca and KL haha. and i dun even feel bored when i am back in muar! my days in muar is occupied by endless yumcha session wif frens =)

well i am going to tell wad i did in kl. just a flash of few pic. details will be coming soon =)


an unit in Bukit bintang marc resident, surrounded by klcc and zouk and aloha and pavilion bla bla bla is where we lived.

sleep wif my nails painted red, wad's the prob?XD

sumptuous meal in jogoya. more pics will be uploaded soon hopefully sharmin doesnt delete it.

wearing identical tshirt dress

lastly, spot me =)

post midyear exam drudgery party!

finally it comes to a halt!
no more studying until 4 am, no more waking up on 3 am, no more caffein overdose, no more snacking excessively, no more retail theraphy on impulse, no more dark circles under my eyes, no more eyebags, no more dull complexion, no more deadly atmosphere, and say yes to HOLIDAY! weeeee

who cares people say SPM candidates have no holiday? i oppose! in fact, we need more break. we are so damn overpressured by the overreacting adult, that why we need more space=D omg i heart holiday =D=D=D


who cares she is hotter than me? haha

let's get it started!

dont kill me. XDXD


me, my new adopted pet-mimi, zhiyong eating BBQ sausage.


taken in between the time interval when she busy eating and BBQing her mushroom.


me and mimi XDXD emo pic first attempt like fail haha.

oh ya, not forgetting..

the upcoming one =) thanks to my best girlfren =D
and yet to be revealed.
on the 19 of july perhaps?


oh ya everyone, ICSAB is having an installation day on 19 of july. do come and have fun. rest assured it will be a damn fun and enjoyable one haha.

depression often leads to...

diva necklaces

crystalized detail!

vivi inspired dresses

forever 21 dresses!

last but not least, favourite bargain.
5 for rm 10 in selected roxy outlets =)

...

i could not get any emo-er.
i am extremely emo now.
yearn for care to fill the emptiness within myself.
i think i am undergoing some kind of dark age in my life.
shop non stop to fill my emptiness.
i am longing for satisfaction.
yet seems nothing can satisfy me.
no, not even a LV. seriously i mean.
i am lack of some X factor in my life.
something important which i could rely on.
the passion to love perhaps.
i m turning into motherfuckingly depressed sometimes.
i see people can live happily like there's nothing to worry abt.
but no, that does not happen on me.
i am living in an illusion.
all the things around me seems so unreal.
i should be happy wif my life which seems so awesome, shouldn't i?

of lacy and public affair =)

hello Panda!

dilemma dilemma.

KL or singapore?
if i go kl, my a level will be one and a half year, i have my big brother there and i can live in my own nice house. i can have SHARMIN come and visit me during weekend and shop together. i can have people in taylors which i know and i am sure i wont be lost then. but nowadays kl is very dangerous. and transport is another big problem. if i choose kl, a new car is necessary, but a car means another huge sum of $$. but no car my safety is not assured. my mum suggested me go and have rich boyfriend there so i can have ppl fetch me here and there (fat hope). some more i hate my bro heavily modified car which i would definitely turn into typical kl ah lian if i ever drive it.

if i choose singapore instead, i will love the enviroment very much. if u are a reader of my blog since last year u would know tat i went sg almost every sch vacation and spent quite a long time there. i really love the place and the convenience brought by the MRT and buses there. and rest assured even if u are a girl who take mrt or buses home becoz sg is much more safer compare wif kl. and the people there would somehow motivate me to study harder through their kiasu spirit. and the education there is well-reputated and i wan to have a new place to start a new life. however, going to sg means i have to be independent in every way. i dun have my big brother there. i have to stay in rental house if i go sg. i have to cook, clean, do laundry, take buses and mrt everyday all by MYSELF. and i hardly could meet my frens and parents here. so damn ke lian i will be. and the a level course will be 2 years. and i scare i could not catch up their syllabus. how?

i have to make decision in these few days becoz if i decided to go sg, i will have to take an exam which cost a bomb on the 12th of june. the closing date for registration is 22 of may. which is just around the corner. nah i cant be indecisive anymore =(

disclaimer =.=

sit back and listen to wad i say.
new life =/= new boyfriend =/= new relationship!
dull. why u all so suspicious one.
if taking a picture wif a boy is having a new bf,
then i should be married by now. =.=
wif a daughter named harlow wtf.

somehow my life is getting back on track now.
and i still heart my babe nic as usual.
are we inseperable? haha.
anyway mid year is coming and i still clueless about the syllabus.
damn freaking pissed=(

should i take the J PACT exam on June for the admission to junior college in singappore?
decision decision.

baby, baby, when we first met,
i never felt something so strong.
you were like my lover and my best friend,
all wrapped into one, with a ribbon on it.=)

erhem

should i declare myself for having a new life?

this is wad they say

Great mind thinks alike.


bought this like 1 month ago. never worn b4 haha

i m in complete disappointment

i seriously dunno why. i have a miraculously precise sixth sense. u may think it's a bless, i thought so. on the contrary, i find it actually a curse to me. i read through ppl mind so easily. i see throught a lie and reveal it like a piece of cake. maybe i was so naive, used to be gullible and was cheated over and over again. then i started to be suspecious, have no faith in people, scrutinize each movement and putting on fake smile on my face. i really hope that i can be a bit more dumb, so that i dun have to face the cruel fact which tear me into pieces. i hope i can have fren who trust and care. i dun wan to be suspicious anymore. it's very tiring. very very tiring. when time comes to putting on fake smile is even a neccessary to your family members, u know something wrong is brewing silently in your life. i dun wan this. i wanna leave here. i wanna a new way of living.

=(

Big day for u=D

finally it comes to an end. 5 years of interacting really opens my eyes.



belated bday celebration.


candid.


she is waiting for food, very desperately.


she is very happy, upon seeing the food. sharing her joy with edwin. he laughed at her.


she eats


and eats.

hehe did it out of boredom.

for those who concerned

when i walked to the class, i murmured in my heart "u could not lose your temper. u could not raise your voice no matter wad, u shud stay calm as she will probably stay cooler with u than others. u could not quarrel over this tiny matter and ruin it all."

i tried to stay as calm as i could. as cool as i could. but your ignorence and disrespectness really drive me to the edge. u treated me like a nuisance. and touching my limit. walked off like u never care and head high like u never see. on the way to my class, i was on the verge of bursting into tears but it's swallowed and perfectly concealed. i told myself i could not cry. my position could not allow me to do so. i must have pride. i just acted like i m furious, cursed u to no end and acted like nothing happened. but the scene haunted me for days and your absence really make a difference in my life. i know u were so devoured by rage and lose your head. i just could not accept the fact that u could treat me like this, just for a trophy. i tried to compromise but to no avail. i could not face u as i dun wan to lead to another arguement. deep down in my heart i know tats always someone who wants to see us end up like this.

i still remember when we were in form 1. we used to make promises like we could not quarrel nor squabble nor wrangle even if we are in a rivalry school or situation. maybe we alreaedy predicted how the days will come. how smart we are right? and people like to compare between us, tried their utmost effort to make our relationship crumble. but out frenship withstand the obstacles and stay still, and evn better after that. i could not deny that my heart hurts and shivered whenever i think abt this, especially this few days. i dun care if ppl see me as a loser

we are equally tough, aggressive, competitive. therefore none of us should blame each other. we used to give way to each other but not this time. perhaps it's time for us to calm down for a while, but not the end. 9 years of friendship could not end so easily.



by par.

i am even happier today =D

yeah. finally all the things come to an end=D
i am really shocked and satisfied wif the result.
i tot we might get the last. but we actually emerged as 1st runner up wor!
such a great surprise to me. i seized the opportunity to ask mr.anba and he said our display is nice and informative. maybe we lose at decoration?
i dun really bother much abt it lar.
i just feel sad for jingqin that he paid so much effort in it yet got consolation prize.
and the sas improved alot i must say. and their presentation, mr anba said is "unbeatable" wor.
lastly convent, which is the most mesmerizing one i think. they did well in those decoration u know. shana really such a nice person who shared her honour wif irrelevant person=.= she is really nice lar despite she is good in sharing.
i dun expect anyone to mimic pnnoraini so well. but kai rou u did it! u are such a supergirl. haha. i really shouted like crazy girl today. so hope everyone can lose your memory selectively huhu.



with ruo han the 38 one. she really had the spotlight. =D

never ever step on my tail or i willl step on your hole. =D

i'm so happy today =D

i am so happy as we finally finish the exhibition. woohoo.
i love kairou as she performed so damn well
and SAS really impressed me.
i love the building that convent had made. shana really did damn well!
and i salute jingqin for having such a great idea to make full use of the bamboo.
woohoo i love all of them. just a lil disappointed is the front part of the exibition which the rotarians really bored by the explaination i think. but it's ok. at least we do it with pride and wee look high =D

WU day can really be considered as friendship day for me haha. i met lots of primary school fren der and was really having a great time=D WU day makes me feel like i am turning bac the time. hehe. and also able to see thru the good and the bad. the true and the fake. i am really looking forward to the closing ceremony tomorrow. woohoo.
the best part is i met yuanyeeh and peisi today who always we ponteng together. talking with them really can make u laugh until tear. nothing is funnier than gossiping and having a common enemy.haha. and yuan yeeh looks great on honey-tanned skin, i swear!

why so serious? haha

"eh, muka kau macam agnes monica la!"
"hai! agnes monica"
lately, i was greeted by comments like this
my malay classmate is kinda crazy over me recently. they are saying the me, and agnes monica are two pods in a pea. and they are quite excited about it and promoting it to their friends. as a result, lots and lots of whispering and ears-bitting when malays walked by me. i am not resent being same with Agnes monica as she is hot haha.
FYI, she is frm indonesia. an Indonesian pop princess, not maid =.=

i swear u will never wan to read blog post like : i backed from school today at 2:00 and missed my lunch and go and sleep till 6 and had dinner and went tuition and sleep cursed teachers for giving so much homework and never-ending kerja kursus. despite all the retail theraphy i had for the past weeks, my life is DULL =( tat's the reason i was not blogging. but soon i realized a comforting fact is i actually have readers, i have blog readers who urge me to blog. very bizzare but i have to believe. =D the tribulation of modern age teenager: too much things to do but too limited time =(


this was how my valentine day was. no chocolate no teddys no flowers, as i am not those girl-in-love stereotype. my only love is chocolate among the 3. my obsessed guilty pleasure. on the contrary, i got a limited edition eyeshadow from majorlica mojorca and six pieces of limited edition Ferrero. =D=D

yesterday was sharmin birthday. she described her sweet sixteen as a 'sour' one becoz she was ordered by her english teacher to copy ten times her homework for not doing the homework given early in the morning. =.= wad a great adjective she used. we spent the day hanging out in midvalley and savouring carbonara pasta wih Duck Confit and orea smoothies in the cozy Delicious. will post the pic soon =D

tell me

tell me u dont love me so i can set u free.

random taggie

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. i am obsessed with dresses at the moment and the number of dresses in my closet are mushrooming drastically.

2. i have bunch of good frens like chee chuan group members haha.

3. missing any issue of popteen will really freak me out.

4. i have a sotong named frankie and i will talk to him when i am bored. dun call me insane as i am seriously have only no company.

5. i love to receive/make wake up call for certain reason.

6. i think self-proclaimed princess is very disgusted and usually hideous

7. in the moment i would like to obtain a law degree in the future.

8. i wan to lose weight and have my hair coloured

9. i wan a very classic design of designer bags which spell timelessness.

10. i love hello kitty and rabbit with small mouth or without mouth and dotted eyes.

11. i loathe pretentious people.

12. i have a cute family and cool boyfriend

13. i yelp whenever i see cat and insect except mosquito and ants

14. i love checkered stuff and bohemian inspired stuff.

15. i love establishing new year resolution and goals and blaa but hardly can realize it.

16. i really wish people can fight back during recession and economical crisis so that everyone can ditch the poverty state and live well.

reasons i had been neglecting my blog

i dun do this in purpose. i have huge interest and great passion for my personal blog. i want a fancy and self-customized header, i want a very urban chic bloggie page. i want myself to ditch my hard core procastination and blog at least once a week. i want to shower my readers with flattering word and articles. i wan juicy picture and gossip and even tabloid trash.all i want is to be a consistent blogger.


but i end up neglecting it for like 3 weeks already. 3 bloody weeks without any sign of living on my blog.


okay. here comes the reasons. i have mountain-like pile of homework waiting to be completed, i have club meeting very frequently. i have many projects to deal with and countless fashion dilemma to handle with (during cny wtf). i have to rush here and there to find a compatible colour tone of extension for my hair. i have to sometimes be a consultant (for like wad clothes she is going to wear for parents meeting =.=) for my dear fren min. all kinds of errand i have to cope is like making me a lemon is a juice press. and dance training is coming soon. i wish i have 36 hours per day.


i have plenty of new year pics actually, jus waiting for panda jules to upload for me. so see ya very soon =D

if i only have one day to live

i will make it living with u =)

now i see, or even foresee, wad true love is.
no matter in any form. ppl who love u will always by your side and suppport u.

countless chances were given.
but someone seems to take it for granted.
it's a new year. a new 2009. the 3rd year.
of all the quarrel and arguement,
it's already the past.
wat's we crave is now and future.
but is that enough time for us
to spend our present time and future together.
i am wondering, doubting.
positive always go wif negative.
and negative will never go wif negative.
it's a science, a logic, a common sense, a general knowledge.
when it starts turning blue,
u cant change the fact.
wat u can do is to save it from fading away.
never try never know.
wad should i do now?
confusion. confusion. confusion.

the last moment of 2008 =D

chillin out in sharmin place and spent our last few hours of 2008 playing mahjong, singing, chatting, and gossip haha.
weisheng won damn alot lar!
when 2009 arrived, we were screaming and shrieking so loud until the opposite shop house ppl stared at us. haha