i m in complete disappointment

i seriously dunno why. i have a miraculously precise sixth sense. u may think it's a bless, i thought so. on the contrary, i find it actually a curse to me. i read through ppl mind so easily. i see throught a lie and reveal it like a piece of cake. maybe i was so naive, used to be gullible and was cheated over and over again. then i started to be suspecious, have no faith in people, scrutinize each movement and putting on fake smile on my face. i really hope that i can be a bit more dumb, so that i dun have to face the cruel fact which tear me into pieces. i hope i can have fren who trust and care. i dun wan to be suspicious anymore. it's very tiring. very very tiring. when time comes to putting on fake smile is even a neccessary to your family members, u know something wrong is brewing silently in your life. i dun wan this. i wanna leave here. i wanna a new way of living.

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